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But soon I started to find out that there was also this sort of strange side-effect of working around the famous. Fame is kind of like a contagious virus that everybody is trying desperately to catch. If you’ve had contact with it, Orlistat samples, people want contact with you. And unless they've already got it, no one is immune, buy Orlistat no prescription. Matrons at a bridal shower, bankers at a Hamptons barbecue, Buy Orlistat without a prescription, hipsters at a Williamsburg roof party, they all wanted to hear how I almost put a microphone on Brad Pitt, or how Johnny Depp pretended he was going to tickle me, or what Beyoncé is really like. I still considered myself the same social misfit I had always been, order Orlistat online overnight delivery no prescription, if one who was sometimes in the right place at the right time. But it didn't matter what I thought of me. I would find that people who, Canada, mexico, india, in previous conversations, had spent most of their time looking over my head, scanning the room for someone better to talk to, would now lean in, engaged, Orlistat trusted pharmacy reviews, rapt, even, hoping to inhale just a whiff of this second-hand fame, Ordering Orlistat online, just enough to make them sneeze. Buy Orlistat no prescription, None of this prepared me, however, for the attention I got when I began working on The Sopranos. I was hired, of course, because they couldn’t get anyone else. The rates were bad, Orlistat over the counter, the hours were long, and my job as a PA was sucky. Also, Comprar en línea Orlistat, comprar Orlistat baratos, while I'm used to being on sets that are 80% male, being on the Sopranos set was like taking a bath in testosterone. The Bada Bing might not be a real strip club, but when you spend your day there, surrounded by a bunch of neckless guys watching strippers pole dance, kjøpe Orlistat på nett, köpa Orlistat online, it sure feels like one. Still, there was an excitement in the air that people get when they know they’re working on something good -- a rare experience in film production, buy Orlistat no prescription. It felt like a family, and the actors often hung out with the crew. Orlistat gel, ointment, cream, pill, spray, continuous-release, extended-release, They were just famous enough to start enjoying it without it having had it go to their heads.

I, on the other hand, was starting to believe my own press. By now, where can i find Orlistat online, I had told so many people that fame meant nothing to me, that famous people just wanted to be treated like everyone else, blah blah blah, Fast shipping Orlistat, that I'd started acting like it was true. Buy Orlistat no prescription, I'm guessing this was why, upon overhearing James Gandolfini, who played Tony Soprano, talking with the DP and describing his character as a fun guy to play, I suddenly chimed in with, “You mean depressed and homicidal?”

“Hey!”

It was the same “Hey” that Tony uses when he’s about to smack Anthony Jr. in the head. It occurred to me, perhaps for the first time, that Gandolfini is a very large man, buy cheap Orlistat, and that whoever had invented the phrase, "Shut up and mind your own business" had been pretty smart, or at least, Online buying Orlistat hcl, smarter than me.

"Who's this?" he said.

The DP introduced us.

"Hi," I said, buy Orlistat no prescription. "I'm just here temporarily."

Jim (yeah, that's what the crew called him) grinned at me, where can i buy Orlistat online. "She's got a smart mouth."

I didn't know how to react in this situation: I had apparently said something not stupid and somebody famous had been listening. So I went back to color-coding tape stock. But whenever I saw Gandolfini after that, Buy no prescription Orlistat online, he said “Hello,” and when the cast and crew got backstage passes to a Bruce Springsteen concert at the Meadowlands, he waved to me and said, “Hey, you clean up nice!”

This and other details became conversational fodder for me of room-stopping caliber, buy Orlistat online cod. There would be a hush within several feet of where I was telling a Sopranos Buy Orlistat no prescription, story as people, while pretending to carry on their own, silly little confabs, were really eavesdropping on and devising a strategy for getting into mine. And the amazing thing that had started to dawn on me was that I wasn’t all that bad at confabbing. The attention that working "in the biz” (mind you, I could never actually say that phrase without choking on my stuffed mushroom cap) had gotten me over the years had given me enough confidence that I could, Orlistat samples, in fact, carry my end of a conversation -- so that I was now, if still far from as cool as people seemed to think I was, then at least more cool than I had been.

Soon, buy Orlistat without a prescription, however, I realized it didn’t matter. Nobody was really interested in me. They were interested in the virus, buy Orlistat no prescription. Purchase Orlistat online, No matter how cleverly I told a story about something I'd seen or done, in the end, they just wanted to know who’d breathed on me lately. This was driven home when I stopped working on The Sopranos on a regular basis –- which happened, inevitably, buy Orlistat no prescription, when the guy I'd been filling in for decided a low-paying, menial job was better than none. Thereafter, Where to buy Orlistat, when people would ask me how the show was going, I’d get to watch the little gleam in their eye go dull, even as I tried to segueway with, “But I spent a couple of days on Ed!"

[caption id="attachment_1841" align="alignnone" width="500" caption=""Is that a boom shadow on the back wall there?""]Sopranos Family Photo[/caption]

Hoping to regain some of my former glow, I stopped by to visit the Sopranos set one day when I was working on a commercial for stretch mark removal cream (oh, buy cheap Orlistat no rx, the glamour) on an adjacent soundstage. I was in the middle of talking with one of the crew when Gandolfini walked by. Buy Orlistat no prescription, “Hi,” he said.

“Hi, Buying Orlistat online over the counter, ” I said, “how are you?”

“I’m fine,” he said, “how you doing?”

“I’m fine,” I said. “And how are you?”

“Uh, fine,” he said, giving me an odd look as he walked away.

And as if it needed any confirmation, there it was: my cool was gone.

Now The Sopranos is long over. When the final season was airing, I didn't even have HBO, so while Sopranos mania once had me at the center of everything, instead, it pushed me back into a conversationless corner, where I had to talk loudly to myself so as not to hear anything about David Chase's daring (or inane, depending on your point of view) ending, buy Orlistat no prescription.

And these days, I hardly get invited to parties any more. Partly, it's because I've left the "work hard/play hard" world of episodic for the "work less/save money for my kids' dental work" environment of commercials, and my crewmates just aren't the partying kind. But partly, I have to admit, you don't inspire the same level of interest in random strangers by telling them that the most famous person you’ve worked with lately is that woman who sniffs her upholstery after spraying it with Renuzit.

[caption id="attachment_1842" align="alignnone" width="320" caption="The two most famous people I've met working in commercials."]John Lovitz And Flava Flav[/caption]

So now, when I meet new people, instead of being the girl with the Sopranos stories, I'm actually just me. A me who has time now to do more of my own writing and filmmaking and, in general, to have a life -- one that isn’t wholly vicarious. Which makes me, at least in my own mind, more interesting, if not any less uncool. I think the truth about caché is something I wish I’d realized when I was a teenager: whether with hipsters, actors or mobsters, what people think about you has more to do with being one of the club, “a friend of ours,” whether you’re in or you’re out. Being cool is kind of like being famous: ultimately, it’s got very little to do with you.

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    • harrietslonim

      Have you seen the current Meow Mix commercial? Whenever I hear that old jingle, I “see” 4-year-old Betsy and my (also 4-year-old) daughter, Donna, jumping on the couch and singing the tune over and over and over again. Well, maybe singing isn't quite right since there never were any words other than “Meow, meow, meow, meow…,” but at least you two had the tune right!

      I've seen you only once since then, but I've heard (from those who know best) that wonderful things have happened for you. And, I'm sure that even more great stuff is still to come!

    • logan

      That last line … kiiiiiiiiiiind of amazing. I need it as, like, a tattoo or something.

    • http://twitter.com/lifebelowthline BTL

      Thanks, Logan. A friend did make me a “Speed, Motherfuckers!” t-shirt a few years ago, quoting the last line of one of my early blogs. Of course I could never wear it in public.

    • http://agorafabulous.wordpress.com/ Kim Hughes

      I am sort of a social leper. I don't think I have what it takes to network, even over the internet.
      My “cool” factor is in the negatives, I think. What I lack in “cool”, I have excess of in nerdery. Maybe that's not a trade off, but I guess it depends on who you're asking.

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    BTL is a New York-based filmmaker and writer who listens to stuff for money – aka, works as a sound mixer and boom operator on movies, TV shows and commercials. She blogs anonymously not to build her own mystique (which she's been told she already oozes) but to make sure she gets her next job. BTL is currently working on a screenplay, a novel, and a documentary, none of which she can tell you anything about — but she can tell you that she likes travel, platform shoes, and bacon-infused bourbon.

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